Why am I doing this?

My lovely husband wants a baby and I do to, but I am a mess. My house is rarely presentable. I watch way to much TV. I spend to much money on stuff that is unnecessary. I rarely get up in time to shower in the morning. I hate having to stop for gas and wait until I absolutely have to. I am not fit to become a mother, but I love my husband, so I have consented to stop using preventative methods some time this summer ( I am trying not to tell him when that will be, some things should still be a surprise). So I have a few (very few) months to pull things together and give my life a little structure before someone comes in and totally turns me up on my head. I have decided to start this by working out again and getting as healthy as I can before baby. My body is going to become the place that I am willing to keep my child in. I am hoping that writing this will keep me on track.